life

its hard to bring a life to earth .
yet taking it away is easy.
life is as fragile as it seems.

though i might not have walked this earth for a long time. i have understood how fragile it is... how all could be lost in a matter of seconds.

caught the prime time news this evening and one of the main stories caught my attention. the one whereby a 22 yr old uni female student was detained for questioning for the suspected murder of a newborn. her newborn. well, guess after investigation more will be reviewed.instead of all the guessing viewers are doing now

guess it was quite foolish of her ... and its a cruel thing to do .. isnt it..throwing the baby down like trash .. down the rubbish chute.. it sucks.. and shows how much respect she has for a human life.... and to think shes a uni student.. she could have understood this pt betta huh ?

hmmm maybe im too harsh to sae tat.. perhaps, she might have been feeling lost at the birth of a child at her age .perhaps she was depressed... perhaps she was afraid... perhaps she didnt know how her parents frenz might react? perhaps...

haiz...hope she aint the one whom deprive another child 's laughter on earth. well, lets just see how investigation on it goes.

Journey

n so , paper bear went kayaking on thursday. weather was so scorching hot that it turn a brown bear into a roasted bear.

well, hahaha. i think thats my problem as i didnt apply enuff sunblock. as a result , i m like being so red faced now:( . oh well, we setted of from CSSC-changi sea sports club to get to coRNey island. lolx.
half wae thru, under the influence of the blazing sun and the tiring paddling. i wanted to stop. but.. cannot lei. if stop paddling then drifted to ubin or malaysia.. chum liao
fortunately, we maanged to get there n return in one piece . the return journey was sort of much cooling cos it rain a little. sea state was startin to get choppy.* didnt like tat part- cos when yihan in front of me raised his paddle, the wind would blow mine and his paddle and the sea water would all land on my face.. hai wo cannot close my eyes to paddle most of the time.
oh well , i can tell u that my shoulders.. are like so suan, and the face and arms are like being prick...sobs* today.

but one good thing i managed to get out of that dae is orange PU TAO TANG is veri nice when chilled
wahahhaaha
shit.. im dead soon. the holidays coming to an end.... and my quizes are jus around the corner.. chum chum.. must study liao

CHao Da bear

eh.. i m realli chao da... i m sun burnt.. think i m suffering from dunno wad degree burns. hahaha. well , kinda tired at the moment. shall pen down the adventures of the bear tmr morning.


in the mean time.. i shall begin to hibernate.. .... in the comfort of my own cave.

update 2

haven been able to update my blog for the past few days because my laptop is down..:(
argh. its so irritating.. wasted my entire sat from morning till evening trying to update my notebook after reformatting it the other dae. to be honest.. i hate it when u gt to do all the updating , formattin.. by my self.. its a waste of time.

SUnday:
went over to hall12.. for games trial.
watched the show constantine after our vm trial. Constantine was pretty kool. well theres all this talk bout it being a extremely good show.. while some saes it isnt. but it seem pretty alrite and worth watching. once again keanu reeves.. is kool in his role as John Constantine.


Monday :
send my notebook to be rescued. all the wae to international business park...sian..
i just hate that route to the acer serive centre. having towake up early in the morning to get there isnt a wonderful thing to do at all . well any wae , i went back to hibernate in skool after tat.
TueSday:
ting^2 msged mi close to one.. sayin she had a crazy idea
which is to get out of ntu for supper... initially didnt want to .. but getting holed up in hall with no notebook is unbearable.. i cant stand to live with out it.
okie so the story goes.... we headed out to boonlay market for supper
as we were eating nasi, i heard a guy voice behind mi . so i turned round.
my nasi almost came flying out.whaaha saw the back view of 2 person cladded in tight fitting pants, singlets and they had long hair..
wah lau . chao er. . . and they were sitting opposite of me. * no appetite at this moment.
and so b y the time i gt back from supper.. it was already close to 3..
ended up slping @ 430 & wakin up @ 9 to collect my notebook cause its ready.came back and did the health screening. hahaha.. well im still healthy .. jus need to becareful with my weight.. hahaha.



tiring dae... seriously i think i need a day of sleep.. one full day... been havin insufficient slp

suay.

today i very suay... suay until i dunno how to put into words.. im still stunned and very annoyed at what had happened......

updateS

heres a quik update..

monday = vdae = any other normal dae:

checkpoint 1: canteen A.
-bz collecting flower n passing xl disc.
checkpoint 2:canteen B.
- had lunch with huijing.
- hmmm, wonder if u people got notice anything about her. if u happen to, dun u find that shes always smiling..?
checkpoint3:lt 22.
-start of the most boring part of the day.
-lectures n more lectures.
checkpoint4:hall 12.
-hahah. finally back in the comfort of my own room... ZZZzzzz
-had to do a last practice for recorder in the music room and to think the performance is only the next day. hahaha 2 practice is all it takes, for us to be up there making noise infront of the crowd.


alrite. need to complain.. i wonder what was wrong on monday? maybe it was the valentine's day mood, the CNY festive mood thats making ppl staying up late. besides tat.. theres still this hyper aunty, getting hyper N hyper as the nite past.in the end.. everyone was chatting.. n toking late into the Morning! N unfortunately for me.. the hyper mood was too contagious and much for me to handle. totally :( . i wasnt able to sleep after that and ended up watchin from behind the curtains, the sky turning bright!!!!!



TUesDAy:
the feeling of nt having any sleep is realli realli wunderfUl!!
couldnt even managed to pay attention as i struggled to stay wide awake in lab n lessons.
the best i could do was be attentive for 5-10min before i started battling against that heavy eyelid.

had our recorder performance during the hall prdtn screening.
hahaha, i think we did a great job la.. despite a little hicups here and there. but overall we were good aint we?lol.. oh well maybe nt me.. hahah i was pretty sucky @ it.
unfortunately, i dun know y they wanted to spoil the show by introducing weird games... arghhhhh..
dun wan to say.. so embarassing. of course , these aside, the event was still gr8 because of the realli interesting movie they made. kewl.. hahaha



WEdnesday: chio bu intern!!!!

see tat heading.. im drooling..
hahaha.. na.. im not. well hospital visit has started to become veri veri veri boring and time consuming for me.. it has cost me a few,hmm maybe several would be a betta term, lectures. well today is my medical appointment with the specialist after my scan 2 weeks back.
i was sort of expecting to see the doc which i didnt realli had a gud impression on, but i was surprised to see a new addition to the room, an intern. hmmm saw her when i first open the door.. hahah wad a pleasant surprise today in contrast to my usual hospital visits.

hmmm neways the doc seemed pretty experienced this time round.. think they changed it again. he asked mi to lie down on the bed and started examining me and at the same time started tokin to the intern.
hmm some how, i felt like a specimen .. after the doc did some twisting n stuff.. the intern started hers. hahah.. but somehow, dun mind la. hahahahah . so there she was doing tests to my knee while the doc was explaining to mi . wasnt concentratin on him till he explained to mi wad went wrong... aint realli good news t o me.

ligament between the 2 bones : torn.
menicus damaged.
and the solution he provided for me was to operate. hahaha.. gross lei. how he describe the procedure... dunno if he was tryin to elaborate to mi. or the intern.. started talkin bout drillin holes between my bones then pulling the hamstring muscle thru it. allfor the sake o f turnin it into a new ligament.. yucks!
6 weeks to consider and for now.. gt to start on physiotherapy once again! argh!!!! more lessons to be missed.... im feeling the heat.

sunny sunday

wee.. sunday.
shud be a nice day for me to sleep through till noon since i slept around four... but, dunno why i seem to be tossing around in bed the whole time.
oh well doesnt matter. dun think its a day im going to waste.
went over to the street soccer court behind my house to meet up with my primary skool frenz and their buddies again.
i m finding it hard to be playing on the court again. haiz~ seem to be much slower and i think i m lacking in stamina at the pace they are playing in. used to be able to cope with their pace las t time.. but since my injury, my fitness level have dropped tremendously.arghhh...
think something needs to be done about my fitness and weight. hahaha..
well tats something to think about la.. which is easy. doing would seem much tougher.heez
but i guess its something that needs to be done.


hmmm tml v day eh..
hahah jus like any other day.. perhaps when i m off the shelve will i be able to appreciate it( some depreciate it) hahaha
yeshhh.. finally a movie to look forward to.... COnstanTine. my sis went yest(Grrr.. making mi stay up so late) and said it was a good one..
well regardless of wad ppl say , i m still goin to watch tat..
heee

5 people u meet in heaven

finally finished reading this book which i bought last sat.. infact i finished it on fri evening. it was pretty engrossing *( at least it kept my interest on it unlike lord of the ring - which i m still tryin to finish)/


its a nice book, nice story. bascially bout this guy eddie who died and found himself meeting different ppl. 5 in fact. And each of them gt theit own tales, something to teach to eddie( perhaps to the readers as well).
oh well its a nice book tats worth reading. caught my eye at borders. glad cherin "persuaded" mi into buyin it.


its kinda late.. 3 am in the morning.. jus finished chatting and im still waiting for my sis to get home!!!
i wonder... it is so nice to watch a late nite show....? oh well. here i am, waiting my time away.....


hmmm tue still gt recorder performance... haven start practising yet.. oh dear..... hope 1 day is sufficient to do all the memorising ... lol.. haiz. another opportunity to malu myself infront of residents.
haha the last recorder performance last sem wasnt such a good job causewe sort of quicken up the pace half wae thru to the chorus while performing "gu dan bei ban qiu". freaking express train.. hahahah it was so damn fast tat alot of ppl couldnt catch up.. glad i didnt miss any note.. well this time , the group is smaller and i suppose we are betta than the last time. hope we can do a good job.

the nite is still young

Friday, day after the second day of lunar new year.

still have lessons in the morning and afternoon.

which equals = waking up early for school.

and having not enough sleep

and lack of enjoyment.


endured for an entire morning and almost all of the afternoon.

before i could finally breathe...

envious of those who self declared off day.



went home around eight with my friend from hall who lives in amk too. ting ^2

we were both talkin bout how to lose weight. hahaha

and of course ang baos..lolx

got tricked into alighting at yishun. where we bascially walked all around to look for food..

from sushi..to kway chup.. end up.. settling for beef noodles at the food court tat was about to close.

hahaha... shi za i gao xiao.. a pretty chatty person she is since i was in social subcom in year 1.. hasnt

changed much.


currently back in the comfort of my living room.. typing on my lap top.. my desktop is such a sore.

its down. think i more suay than xiling. fixed liao spoilt.. fixed again spoilt again.

giving up. think shall just send it to the repair centre.


the nite is still young... though... the heart isnt any more.

ChineSe nEw year

hmmm, well chinese new year is finally here. yeah!!!
its arrival means more goodies, more food, and more more food. hahhaa!
yupz definitely a festive season to eat all sorts of food without feeling guilty for the first few days.. heeZzz
the yummy goodies, peanut cookies, cashew nut cookie and the ever popular pineapple tarts.. etc etc.
woaaahhh, its making me hungry man!. cant wait to open up all those goodies in my house.MuHahahaha!


hmmm this year's reunion dinner was quite different. instead of having the usual steamboat along with my aunt's families, we went out for dinner. hmmm steamboat was sorely missed but i cant deny the fact that the various other dishes of the likes of shark fin, deep fried prawns..etc etc.. was delicious. heez. to think my cuz, was oni interested in his game boy!!...heez all the more betta for my stomach.

went over to river hong bao to take a walk after cny dinner. place was pretty crowded with ppl. my cuz as usual, always like ppl to take fotoof him. hmmm, pretty much like the lights and ppl in the area. it certainly did bring out the cny atmosphere.



o well, preeetty much had nth to do back @ hm. no tv to watch... and i m watching LOTR again .hahaha.. pretty much find the fighting scene kool and thats what kept me from watching it again n again and again..
hmmm.... seems like very one like to get a car theses daes eh? hahaha.. haiz. my advance expiring soon, think i might have to take another test. how boring can tat be.argh , i shall see about that. no interest in obtaining one..hahah , might seem funni to some.but i ve gt a steersman licence which means i can steer any boats be it passenger or commercial.. yet i dun own a class 3..well...hahahah i duno..


almost finished reading my book. in fact i think i did, this afternoon on my way home back from skool whilst i was on the train. the book was nice, it had a good story which . hmmmmmm......i think my sis is asleep;;hahahaha.. talk about watchin lotr.. she actually fell asleep..

oh well, its chinese new year..wishing all readers. a haPPy ChiNeSe nEw yeaR .Gong Xi FA cAi! gt to be conc on the show for now.

lng day

i starting to find it hard t o wake up early in the morning and get to my lectures on mondays. partly due to the fact that the first 3 lectures are the dull and boring. perhaps its also because of the fact that 7 hours of lecures in a day isnt tat appetizin.hahhaa.
any way, it was tough sitting through the 7 hours.. imagine learning that i had another 2 hours of make up which would take my day from 830 am to 730 pm... this is truely one of my longest day .. almost hardly bearable. argh
hmm at least i managed not to miss any o f my lessons for today . heez....heard that?

Relaxing sunday

hmm had one of the longest sleep since school reopen.finally no early meetings.. no early classes or lab on a sunday morning. spent my time watching tv..till noon where i went to join my pri skool frenz for soccer. heez, i guess age is catching up on me eh?or perhaps the freq visit to the loo this morning, which i think is due to the oyster ,made me weak. i hardly had any stamina to run.. hmmm my knee didnt gave me much trouble... or at least till now.. nw its kinda sore.. and so , i spent my time on the street soccer court till bout 5 in the evening.
and so the day was largely spent on the court.. and at home watching tv.. watched the butter fly lovers. or liang zhu.. wah.. hmmm ever so touching.... haiz.. its a nice movie.liang cai ni is quite a beauty.
think she shud be in more movies.

argh. haven been doing any work this weekend..seems like the festive mood has gotten over to my head. well , guess a week of relaxation is fine . isnt it? hee

nice dae....

felt someone tapping my shoulders and telling me" hey , thought u said u gt a meeting today at 11?". tat sentence realli woke me up from my wonder sleep i haven had for ages
time: 1015 - im late...
destination: city hall
e.t.a : 20-25 min from mrt.

heez, thank goodness i am a fast person.. hahaha at least im able to be out waiting for bus by 1035 lol
arrival time: 1125. late -25min..
haiz . im late again. used to dislike late comers cos all my frienz are.. now.. im picking up the habit from dem .being late my self. isnt such a pleasant thing. hahahah.. wil make it a pt to try to be intime hehehee
late for vm meeting.. seems like vm meeting alwaes start late.lol .

went walking along orchard with cherin xiling yihan and pang tsung.. wahh.. ms cherin... tat gurl,suan me earlier on my hair, realli knows her shopping directions.. hahaha shes one gd shopper.well.. bascially we went round the various places in town for the nxt few hrs.. oh ya.. i think from today on wards.. i m abit afraid of oyster omelette.. well those ppl around during lunch break.. u shud know y...
gt a new book : the five people u meet in heaven
hmmm long time didnt buy any book.. well.. nvm, guess its jiu jiu yi chi ba.. hahah..

so tired haha... came back from town still gt to go buy cny stuff with fam.hahaha..

back @hm: 910..
tired.. hahaha.... but. still gt to settle my computer.. its driving me nuts..
but.. overall its a nice day .glad i didnt waste another sat. heez... well.. yup.. a nice day.. veri nice .. .hahaha

fullerton 

HOspital

woke up late today, miss the first lecture which i intended to go. ended up rushing to the hospital for my appointment with oni an hr plus at hand. well, this time round i did make it in time for my appointment without being late.
hmm my wait during registration was quite interesting, chatted with a ah pek who came from china last time. kool.. he was here since 12 and before the war. while chatting a gal gt wheeled out of the xray theatre. wow.. she look real ciao cui. hmm looked as if she got into an accident; maybe she gt beaten... cos.. her eye was blue black.. looked real ke lian.. any way.. my wait wasnt so long as my other hospital visit , which is quite good. hahaha.. went into this particular room with this big machine with a hole. i had to put on this dumblookin shower cap hahaha. look as if im goin for a shower. hmm the machine was damn noisy.. had to put on a ear plug.. but good thing is that theres 933 to listen to over the head fone.lolx....haiz.. but. it wasnt so comfy lying down though with my legs encased in the rest support. hard to imagine.. lying down in side a machine , listening to 933 ..Cost: 10 per min. hahaha.. expensive.

well after bout more than 30 min, im done. hahaha
well now i just got to wait for wad the doc saes.. haven apply for deferment.. haiz.. and my pc is giving me lotsa headaches.yawn.. tml still got meeting and i just realised i ve got a makeup session in skool tml. shudnt have gone home jus now in cab with my frenz jus now.. arghh..

pissed

kinda pissed to day at how some of the students reacted to the way the prof was conducting the lecture.
well the incident occured when the prof was unable to find his stack of transparency and also because his lecture was confusing to most of us. yeah, i could understand the rest's frustration but.. wad STUPID right do the student have to judged that the lecturer WASNT prepared enough to teach? that BLOODY POLY GUY.disgraced himself by saying all this SHIT :" i think u nt prepared for lecture.. you are wasting the timeof those who made an effort to come to your lecture.. blah blah" when the lecturer tried to talk and explained he might have misplaced his next stack of transparency due to classes on yest night.. the guy said this ,which i think is stupid.:" if you are here to teach, let me ask you , wheres yourlecture notes.i think 80 % of the students here agree with me that you are not prepared"..stupid guy.. cant he stop disgracing himself in public? i didnt ask for him to represent me.. as if all people in there agree with him..and its as if he was listening.. no RESPECT at all.. someone needs to teach him this. wads the idea of tryin to say this? helps ? if got time.. help him lookfot the transparency la.. arghhhhhh . some of them realli arrogant.

CNY dinner.

i think i did a very bad job with my hair, gt the wrong dye n didnt do a proper dyeing. cause after a week the colour is still as original as eva.. black! waste money , waste time.. hahaha.

yest nite had our hall cny dinner . whole row of neighbours was there. wilfred, qingfeng, yide, leonard, yihan,charlie and many many more. we went over to kim's place , somewhere along joochiat to have the cny dinner. food there wasnt really that nice. ..read the sign board on top tat saes fried prawn mee king. walau... after tasting it.. iseriously doubt the authencity of that zhao pai. alrite, perhaps the food wasnt the maindish for the evening, the atmosphere was. it was nice hanging out with my neighb..

upnext after the dinner was the singapore river cruise. hahaha. pretty nice and kool to be back on a something that floats. nice watching the skyscrappers n "durian" from sea.. its a pretty nice feeling.. dunno how to describe(think one shud experience for themselves) unfortunately, i think the duration of that ride seems abit off. hahah it was pretty short. we bascially went down sg river, did a turn by the merlion/clifford pier, then back to where we first boarded the craft. kinda..sian. but one fullerton was very nicely lit up. i think its one of the best attractions of the boat ride. anyway, time was running short because of unforeseen circumstances. it was pretty late for a tour of niu che shui so we ended up takin one of the buses heading back to skool instead.hmmm kinda wanted to go.. but it was late.. n no kakhis.. and i heard its oni for anhr if we go.. so no pt.... pretty tired.. guess i ll end here..

being Down

doesnt realli seem like a good day today.think this "week" should be a better term for "day". weathers fine. no early labs in the morning. jus 3 lessons in the afternoon- 3 tutorials in fact.one of my shortest day i have ever had... but i aint the least bit happy. had to do a counsellin session with my mentor. also dunno for wad since the mentor also dunno wad it is for.. jus need to go there do tick the correct boxes session .boring , totally boring.


haven been doing my tutorials for this week, and this isnt such a good thing.
lotsa things to worry bout...