empty

i dont feel so good.
currently im feeling lost...
i dont know what should i do ...
stunned.
and i hate it when the jotter book slip my hand n i saw wads indicated.
i had studied hard for tat...
n .. i dont know wad else i can do . it just sux..
empty.
empty inside my head & heart.
down.
feeling .. i dont know how to describe it.. m i sad?
i just feel lost at the moment
wish i could get away from all these...
F@#k

fears

the clock is ticking away... the time to face up to my fear is drawing nearer...
haiz.. i dunno if... no i think...i might nt do wellll... and.. its those kinda of realli bad one....
i am feeling so afraid of getting back my results. haiz.. it suxks.... n it worries me alott.. haiz..
i just wished i had done betta... n nt be feeling like this..
im just praying...... :(

updates.. brief....

monday:
lets c.. monday blues... tiring day.....lab .... basketball game.

tuesday:
nth to comment... realli

wed: hosiptal visit..early morning. hate the mo
ARgggghhh i give up/./. my stupid modem is playing a prank on me. n i cant get on line for more than 5 min.. without having disconnected.. lost the mood to update... *pissed*

guys, craps, jokes, memories.

met up with ck, wh, kq kp and hw for dinner yest. its been a long time since i last met up with them over a meal. it was truely a good meet up session over dinner. hahaha. its been a while since i actually crap along with my frenz lame jokes laugh out loud in the middle of the conversation.. neva felt better when i am with my secondary school frenz.. some of whom were also my eca pals last time. chatted about alot of stuff, stuff bout school, life outside, gals.. and also on the rest who aint present.hahaha. man.. it was enjoyable. after dinner was poool session... hahaha everytime i play with wee hao its always terrible. cos he ll be crappin those jokes.. making weird sounds.. making me lose my conc... and..eventually missing out on sitters... arghhhh .. playing pool with them was neva dull... i realised. when i m with others.. we normally chat a bit.. play around with the ball.. seriously .. hahaha.. but neva crapping... monkeying around.. taunting each other.
perhaps tats why i dont play well @ all with them .hahaha.


i miss my secondary school friends. they form some of the happiest and memorable time i have spend. memories of my secondary school life.. where we did stupid and interesting things.. hahahaa...the anticpation of the arrival of the next day ...etc etc.....

hmmm hope to meet up again with u guys soon. we ought to have more of such outings. MUhahahhahaha..

angry

i dont like people who think that they know everything. whats worst about them is that they dont even know much about something, yet they talk as if they are experts or someone who learnt of certain stuff.. basically , they are BULLshiting.... a bit is still alrite.. but too much bullshittinggg.. just makes you step on your own shit!

wad happened to U? ^_^

been a really fustrating day yesterday evening. was using my notebook when it indicated low batt. so i tried to charge it using my power adapter.. unfortuntately.. think i was really being very suay. my power adapter went on a strike and refused to charge up my batt.. leaving me without the net... music.. and entertainment. sux..

was slightly late than usual for my dip..partly because i need to return my former hostel room keys and also because i overslept by 30 mins.. hahah...
but still i did make the effort to go down over, junnie, commented on a foto of me taken when i was in jc.. and said this to me " wad happen to you huh ?" wahahhahaa..
yeah.. thats the question i shud be asking about myself.
think.......i practically didnt care bout my appearance after jc.... lol...need to work hard to be wad i used to be...

blurry

Songs Of RegretS
Everything's so blurry
And everyone's so fake
And everybody's empty
And everything is
So messed up
Pre-occupied without you
I cannot live at all
My whole worldSurrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know thatI'll protect you
From all of the obscene
I wonder what you're doing
Imagine where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved itIn my face
Everyone is changing
There's no-one left
That's realTo make up
Your own ending
And let me know
Just how you feel'Cause I am lost
Without youI cannot live at all
My whole worldSurrounds you
I stumble then I crawl
You could be my someone
You could be my scene
You know thatI will save you
From all of the unclean
I wonder what you're doing
I wonder where you are
There's oceans in between us
But that's not very far
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved itIn my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved itIn my face
This pain you gave to me
OhNobody told me
What you thought
Nobody told meWhat to say
Everyone showed you
Where to turnTold you
Where to runaway
Nobody told youWhere to hide
Nobody told youWhat to say
Everyone showed youWhere to turn
Showed youWhere to runaway
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my face
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away?
Can you take it all away?
When you shoved it
In my faceThis pain you gave to me
This pain you gave to meYou take it all
Take it all awayThis pain you gave to meYou take it all away
This pain you gave to meTake it all away
This pain you gaveThis pain you gave


sometimes.. i wonder why things are so blurry in life.

i wish

Some times i wish i was some where else some other place ..
At times i wish i wasnt doing the stuff that i m currently doing..
Most of the time i feel lost. certainly wish that i am not feeling that way.
But still it cant be helped at times.

I wish i could turn back time.. back to the good old days in secondary school. where we used to run across the field....playing soccer... climbing into the air rifle range and playing there, where we used to have our weekly npcc parade, and wearing that good old greenish school uniform.
How i wish then, that i could have said somethings to somebody... and not
walked away in silence. How i wish i could have paid more attention to those around me and cherish their friendship better.
I wish i could have stayed in the best part of my teenage life longer...but alas its not possible.

Time passes.. people change.. environment changes.. we grow up.

I wish that between people.. there would be trust.. and comraderie... not
distrust and hatred for one another...
I wish.. that the world may be a more peaceful place to live in....
I wish i could have rescued that mum and her children.. if only...i could
they would have been still alive...Regrets in life.

I wish i hadnt slack that much before the exams.

Time passes and all that is left behind are unrealised wishes, regrets and
memories and all these last a life time.

a day in dip

another day goes by... an all i can say is.. unfruitful.been in the lab @ s2 b7 since 830 am this morning. was supposed to be in lab doing my dip project. i was the first one there so early.. hahah pointless. we were assigned to design a reverberation chamber using the aid of Labview - a software which we practically neva used before. first 2 days of the campaign was used to learn how to use the software..despite all efforts made.. progress was still minimal on the third day. made a couple of friends here in my project grp which consisted of just only 12 people. friendly bunch of people. hahahah.today very very fei. didnt realli do much . much time was spent tryin to find relevant websites that could be used to aid us in using the program. besides tat... i think i was basically spending too much time wandering around block S2 . hahaha.. too bored in here.. buay tahan liao.

the end?

exams are finally over. phew. no more readings and its time to enjoy. and this is my first post since i last posted one mth back... in march. i dun think i might last....blogging..
then again.. next week would be the start of the dip . which means any holidays mood i have is blown away by this. hahaha.. one whole month of project work, mondays to friday from morning till evening. guess life would have to get boring.. hmmmm wonder if i would still be able to head out after the dip each dae...

something is wrong with me .... mood hasnt been realli great after the exams.. been very moody.... andtempermental......esp when i flared up over some small comments made..
hahah i think i need to de stress very badly... hoping to go to town but the mood isnt there... besides that isnt much great company.
couldnt find kakhis to go play billard with me..my frequent kakhi is still havin exams... its damn boring... let me see.. 3 more days of free time fo myself.. before the projectwork starts... haiz. doesnt matter.. hahah. one month more to spend time with hall mates before they all leave for their industrial attachment early next semester. kinda sad tat to know tat gr8 neighbours like dem that make my lifein hall interestin aint goin to be around next sem... im goin to miss them.. hahaha..yah. life.. tats how it is.


oh well .. i ve been slackin over @ home for the past few days. haven step any where out side amk so far. i m goin crazyyy.....
time for a temperament check.....................and more games.. Muahhahahahahaha!.......