life just like ur tendon.. one wrong move.. gone.hahaha

It seems that after that incident where I torn my ACL,my knee would neva turn out to be normal again. That very problem have given me endless headache as well as new problems.. its kinda sucky and not comforting to know that after ACL reconstruction… things might just improve… but.. it would neva be back to normal.
Playing soccer.. resulted in my stupid injuries.. b ut the xray also mention that its chronic..oh well.. veri fan about this matter.and the doc sux. Seems like goin or nt goin for the operation have their own complications..oh well even after I go for ACL reconstruction.. the damage to my knee would have already been done.. my menicus has taken a substantial load over the past 8 mths. They are wearing out…. So at the end of the dae when all is fix.. I think..it will neva be the same old knee eva again.. the one I relied so trustingly for the past 22 yrs.. haha…n I would have to adapt all over again.. to this new knee…………… that's wad i call ........ life ….in and off it....it s just funny....interesting... stupid.. irritating... fustrating....etc.. mix them all up n its... LIFE.

how many tendons do i have.

recently, i ve been secretly buildin my own airport.. goin to venture into the budget airline industry soon if my frenz keep building aeroplanes for me.. think i shud be able to compete with the likes of tiger airways, valuair.. airasia. etc.lol

woke up after slightly more than 4 hrs of sleep, my head is feelin terrible. same goes for the eyes.. they could hardly open.
had to go for my appointment at AlexHosp again. think AlexHosp has been a regular feature, a sure must visit place once a week .. had to wake up tat nite "eeyore" think her bio clock also goin to be as jialat as heiren. today, my aunt was acc me there. well she helped me find out alotof stuff tat the doc didnt mention in details..
SUX.. it was goin to be a major op.
oh well last time i saw him he said something like: pullin the hamstring muscles to attach to bone blah blah..
this time round.. under my aunt's queries, he said: oh major op, ya. we would be cuttin and using the spare tendon from ur back of ur leg.. so. you will just experience pain ..at the back..;then we goin to have some screws....otherwise u can choose to live with it, except maybe it might worsen if u exert it next time......................................Grrr...and since when did he mention having metal screws n bolts in my knee the other time!

wTh.. F&*K . like dat very headache la... op also gt problem.. dun op also problem....
ai ya.. sian ......

to be cont' soon.. if nt daes aft.... headin for tut..




p.s : betta slp early donkey kong!

圆游会

琥珀色黄昏像糖在很美的远方
你的脸没有化妆我却疯狂爱上
思念跟影子在傍晚一起被拉长
我手中那张入场券陪我数羊
薄荷色草地芬芳像风没有形状
我却能够牢记你的气质和脸庞
冷空气跟琉璃在清晨很有透明感
像我的喜欢被你看穿 摊位上一朵艳阳
我悄悄出现你身旁你慌乱的模样
我微笑安静欣赏我顶着大太阳
只想为你撑伞你*在我肩上
深呼吸怕遗忘因为捞鱼的蠢游戏我们开始交谈
多希望话题不断圆游会永不打烊
汽球在我手上我牵着你瞎逛
有话想对你讲你眼睛却装忙
鸡蛋糕跟你嘴角果酱我都想要尝
圆游会影片在播放这个世界约好一起逛

drama

hmm jus heard from my sis that something happened over at the block next to ours yesterday.. just saw it in the papers. it so happened that someone wanted to jump.. so along came the firedept.police... blah blah. and lotsa aunties uncle.. hahah heard that my cuz covered his ears and made a comment.. and it goes like this: deng xia da diao xia lai hor.. pom.. u sheng ying.. " hahaha... haiz.. my cuz.. heard him n his bro are learnin wu shu.. omg.. jialat.. next time im goin to get wack by them. lolx. haiz. haven been seeing them these 2 years veri much even though they were at my place.. haiz..

SUshi YUm~ yum~

went over to suki sushi at lot 1 with the lot of my hall12 residents.. bascially yr 2 mates, wilfred, joel, yide, leonard, chris, sally, jorwe n gf,qingfeng, edwin and charlie.
hahahah
i leonard n joel were late and the sushi was bout to end in 1/2 hr time.. joel started the ball rolling by ordering. and we ended up doing so twice in a span of 20 min..we ended up with more than 30 plates of stuff. we ate.. n stuff... but stilll it was too much for the three of us.. hahahah.. we couldnt finish lor.. and we were like... playin ard with food....hahh tryin to stuff them in between plates.. n hope we wun get charged for it..


the sushi... was....DOminating.. hahahhaa.. too good. but too much .lol.. it managed to fill thebear stomach so much that it made him sick!
almost puke...*shakes head.. we overestimated our self. hahaha
aft the owning buffet we headed over to play pool . i teamed up with leo.luck wasnt on our side at first but we managed to get betta over time. heee....
hmm its kinda relaxing.. spending the dae out with themm... haha been a while since i had such big gathering.. where everyone participates and enjoy themselves. :)

haiz. going to miss them when they aint going to be ard in hall next sem..

b b

wow.. today was the most miserable day so far. hahaha.. had only 2 hours and 45 minutes of sleep.. argh its so miserable.
waking up early in the morning at 650. to wash up, change n stand in queue alongside the i a ppl.. man.. it was pretty tough for mi to keep my eyes open..YawnZ~

tired man.... on the train..en route to AH... well.. guess im late again.. ahhaha.. reached queenstown mrt at 8.. n saw the shuttle bus left the area ... in front of me. argh.. * my appointment was at 8am. SUx

so.. waited for another 20 min.. gt to clinic K at 830... waited for half an hour before i was called for. hmmmm, i was so sleepy .. that when they were applyin the hot pack on mi.. i fell asleep on the bed. hahaha.. sux man.. my therapist woke me up and asked mi to do the routine stuff. . cycling.. gosh. didnt knew that one can actually cycle.. and wan to doze off.. i realli felt like giving up and jus hide in one of the rooms with the curtains close.. and.. Zzzzzzzzzzzzz into bearland.. hahahah.. GGrrr and eat up those whu disturb my rest.. lol.

oh well normally my session last for slightly more than an hr.. or one and a half at most..
today.. was highly abnormal... it lasted 3 hrs.. i almost peng sang.esp those excercises that require mi to lie down.... i was like.." hmm , pillow quite soft... slp 5 min.... " eat a bit of snake.. but then theres another fierce therapist moving about.. n shes alwaes checkin on the guy next to mi.. couldnt risk it.. hahaha.

well veri torturous 3 hrs.. sobs.. * no more late nites...
came back to skool and realised.. i didnt do the survey for yr3 subj and IA option..
headaches.. i keep forgettin impt stuff.. need to have a pa with me. hahah.
well this tired bear hibernated for bout an hr and a half before heading to an hour lect..



now.. waitin for frenz to go eat buffet.. yum yum... food. oh., just realised i haven ate my breakfast n lunch.. hmmm then again.. the bed i s beckoning....

north pole

been heading down to the northen hemisphere to hibernate lately ..
hhahaha.. its a cosy... kool place for a bear to hibernate in .
went over to lib 2 to start mugging abit for my maths with yx n blackk.
hahaha.. i think... i m a bit like a frog in the well. cos.. i didnt even realise that theres a basement in lib2.. hahaha.. sua ku... first time lor.. yx msg me sayin at the basement....at the back of the lib.. however.. hahah i walked for so many runs.. didnt see her till i saw the stairs leading downwards............hahhahaahhhh ntu is small... but still many places.. that i haven explored..

currently in north pole communicatin.. with yx n her fren at south pole. haiz... so sian.. feel like didnt do much at nite at this moment....... hmmmm think im been slackin since aft dinner.. hahaha.. ohman... . im dead....

nebbih

living was my last post,
it seems tat theres more to it
first, its nt simple, and it neva was.
especially the part of seeing wads in life,i s tough but nt impossible.
seem to know wads happening ard me liao.neva hve been clearer
unles i haven awoken from tat slumber
Xcept perhaps that blurred vision.it pricks. ", *shrugs
i was at the zoo today,
absolutely happy to be there.
many were late.haha as usual. spent some tym @ the train station,
so the trip was delayed.. but.. thankful.. all was well..
and i guess the kids were happy.. so were the volunteers.
delicious ice cream at the end of the trip .hahah all thanks to pang.
emotions were runnin high at the talk of orange sherbet.. my fav.. hehee
sherbet-is the best.. eva...hahahah one just gt to try to understand wad i said.
pangtsung took my last scoop out. Grrrrr....
after that we headed to bishan to slack the dae away.. hahaha too tired to accomp my frenz after tat.ended up calling my friend mc.
ended up he also turned me down after tat. sux

living

been having this thought lately..
what am i doing in life..?
seriously , i dont think i have got the answer for that right now.

as i walk along the school campus. seeing how serious ppl are in their work, i am wondering what the hell i am doing.. at work and in life.
iam wandering about aimlessly.it kinda sux....
i have been living within a cloud of cover.... so thick that i didnt know where i am . where i was... what s my purpose in life.


ya... whats my purpose in life? in the past, i have my own small little checkpts or aims in life. gettin smoothly into secondary skool, JC .. uni...
and now finally here i am in university and ... what the hell am i doing..?yeah.. what the hell am i doing..

been missing lectures... lost in time....
i am without any aims.. i have have simply lost my drive...
its like im simply living life a day as it passes at the moment...

crap..its a vomittin gal on the screen at the moment
creepy....


anyway.im simply sick of living life as it is at the moment.

Grrrrr..

seems much to me that theses days.. im a bit... weird.. grumpy... irritated. lab reports.. quizzes are coming crumpling down at me.. having missed so much lectures just these 2 weeks after recess is already making me struggle beneath the waves.. help! i m seriously finding it hard to cope liao.. : (

half of the week have already gone past...n ..i guess its time for me to start on something. econs quiz and lab submission next tue.. i really haven got much time to work on. must find time for books.. and report..worst thing is.. my notebook is giving me holidays.. like wad ceiling said...ai ya.. its a gone case liao.:(


veri much irriated with the way some things was going.. in fact i didnt know where it was headed towards. *sigh*

siao..

siao..

ChaSe

was bout to reach forth and save the dae.. when theres this poking bythe side of my waist.

and there i was.. awoken by my sis when i m coming to the best part of my dream.
being awoken so early isnt a great thing. had it nt been something worthy of my attention.. i wun have bear poke her back.. i hate been poked by my sides.

oh well been realli troubled with my knee recently.. my GP explained to me that its a must do operation.. veri much like wad the spec said.. oh well
guess i l l have to do it after the exams.. dunno whu kept sayin.. maybe one leg short and long. walk with a limp.. hmmm dun think i will lor... hahhaaha


watched supa sunday mission. it turned out to be pretty sad. in the show, the subject to be found was eventually located.. but, he was dead... n his frenz apology couldnt be conveyed..
hmm its a pretty sad thing.. highlights the fact that in life, sometimes its best to express your feelings before its too late. of course, we are nt able to do this in all circumstances sometimes in this society we live in. most of us are hiding behind a mask... a mask to face others.
however, guess the best thing to do is to know when its time to sae it. express it ... for we might nt be able to tell them our apologies or love for them .


hmmm , a must learn...

noises

hmmm, been pretty busy for the past one week. i had numerous quizzes, that seem to be coming and coming and coming none stop. 5 quizes in a week is mentally exhausting, especially when im still trying to catch up with work. imagine having 3 quizes in a day. one for breakfast,one for lunch and the last for dinner. and having another one in less than half a day later.
well i tell u , it can certainly make mi wan to puke...more like suffering from quiz indigestion. lolx.


anyway, i have been real busy so haven realli had time to update my blog.. sorry guys.. and gals. hahaha .
well, haven really had much to update bout the week.. since its so uneventfully filled with quizzes.

:) today headed back to study with frenz. somehow gt a feeling i bei pian xu pei da de. argh. hahaha. but any way at least i did cover part of my maths notes which i had been lagging ... quite seriously. think im goin to lag even more next week when i start my physio. hahah the be a frenz banner on top of the bridge.. cannot make it liao.. i sort of see that its breakin into three parts.
think something needs to be done about it.


oh well, went to watch whitE noiSEs. nt realli quite a good show.. veri weird... story guai guai de...dunno y like dat.. n the noise so soft.. how to hear.. arghhh..

nt a good movie.. ppl.. dun watch.. nt scary also. hahaha