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sometimes, its not easy to do something.
but sometimes some things just needs to be done.


lotsa things tat need s to be done at the moment.
and im tryin to handle dem









hahaha. gt a new hair cut today.
think im going bonkers.exams round the corner...and im stil playing pool today with my friends. hahaha nt bad.. i shud say. im getting too good for them.





great why cant i just do a simple thing straight.
thanks to my HM for the lecture. it greatly demoralised me.
but then again its nt going to put me down. lol. but i get your point......


mood:?

the question

it feels weird after the talk among us.
i dun think i can say enough thanks to whoever it is.
perhaps i was that stupid one who started wadeva or said something?
things sure are cloudy.
but i hope it sticks to within this incident and doesnt go on to affect our friendship. sorry for whoever hurt who.

honestly it wasnt beyond the limit.

quite disturbed that this happened.



:perplexed

expected: KE 50 HC 40 LE 170
achieved: KE 60 HC 40-45 LE 180


kinda glad i managed to increased my expected progress to the point where i would be able to get to runnin soon. GoOd results for the knee extension and leg extension. finally managed to reach the minimum standard for the above. unfortunately, hams curl wasnt that good. still hurts when i do that. but hope by the next session i would be able to hit my target of at least 50 . : l


oh well .

uneventful day

gt a moment of peace from the net.. wonder its a good thing or bad thing tat my net work went dead. coudlnt even log in to mails, websites or msn. lousy nite..


ended the day in the early morning. 5 am. hahah. it really sux. dont think i can substain this kinda lifestyle any longer.
eating mac at 4 am. chatting till 5am. i shud focus on my work. argh

think that AS feeling is getting to me again.
bo o hoo.


song of the week: 心中無別人
song next week:心中無別人 , 好不好
hahaha. oh well .its nice. and i bet one day my neighbours cant stand me
hahahahaha

running

been in real bad shape for the pass 2 weeks alr. kinda getting stumped over some matters.

im running ,
and i dunno why im running.
wonder why i am running...


hahah. it just suxs totally .

thanks

thanks ppl for the company,
(-_-

weekly update

was depressed with lotsa stuff this week. mylife..

disappointed with my life.. my wellbeing. people around me.... and MYSELF

was especially depressed after wed AH visit. and i sort of went window shopping.. first time in my life i go window shopping myself.. boring.... hahahahh haiz. wads happening man.
nt a bad idea to go though cos i actually saw a pair of adiddas shoes tat i quite like.
after shoppin went over to jp as well.. walk walk.. play arcade..
i guess im wasting my life away.. hahahah sucky



couldnt hit the books with event later at nite .. exam supper.
any way it was a bad nite.. gt a piece of news tat was bad.. someone died..oh well though i dunno him tat well i dun like tthe fact that it might be self induced..
that made me depressed even more.. i just gt something bout deaths.. seen enough of it in ns... think i just couldnt get over deaths.. thats y .. one shud live life . n love life
TREASURE LIFE..... HAIZ. I DUNNO LA.

thursday..
headed over to AH again. met up with physiotherapist to discuss my condition... nt so rosy..
aniwae thankfully no electric simulation by her..
went out with WJ. played pool and drank..
puked for the first time in life under the influence of alcohol.
hmmm..dunno.its a once a blue moon thingie tat i go out and drink with frenz. cam e back to hall.. think i wandered to the toilets in a zig zag fashion.. lotsa neighbours were looking at me weirdly i think.. but gues s i didnt care tat time..
pT said i looked fierce and i bo hiu him when he call me...
hmm where gt ? im such a friendly guy whahahahaha.. im rite? hmmm
so .. to my friends who saw me in hall or .. ppl tat noe tat i drank .. i m not a drinker.. nt alcoholic.. na na




friday
ms rin was so sick today.. she was running a high fever.
its kinda interestingto see/peek at how she ate her medication
kinda first time seeing ppl take their medication in this manner. wahahaha
headed over to jw funeral wake.
its kinda unbelievable that someone just left like tat
*reminded of unhappy events
aniway had a nice dinner at kopitiam in yishun.. thanks bingrong for directions to my frenz wake.
rin condition worsen. sent her back hm with dad waiting for her downstairs.. wondering if she gt a lecture....anywae. ms rin if ur reading this.. DUN SKIP that ANTIBIOTIC. : )

and thanks yihan for asking why i went drinking
and like i said, its bout life.. matters.. ppl...n my stupid self.


granted that not all things are balance in life
and they never shall be.
it will be good if we dont measure them up.


mood: confused,gloomy,*dunno wad to do*

song: blurry

monday/tuesday

great.. insommia. didnt really slept on sunday nite. spend the nite tossing ard in bed. and coming to school.. tired out....

haiz. aniwae.. i finally reached 101 posts with this one. hahahah never thought i could actuall y make it tat far..


im tired.... tired.


okie. at this hr still having ppl correcting speelling mistakes.. it was a typo... and also on my pronounciation.. did i get the speelling correct'? arghhh cant be bothered.. its typo if its wrong. : )

monday.

practically didnt slept yesterday nite... dunno why. but guess its an indication that im beginning to feel stress? haha.. im tired..................................................................... <(._.)>

sunday sundaes

sorry but i didnt had any sundaes this sunday. hahaha
had a pretty much uneventful day at home..
gt to start my engines..
my mind is pretty messed up with things.urgh.
projects i hate them .

nite was pretty enjoyable,
met up with my Pri Skool FrenZ , huimin .
hahah she still as thin as eva..
played pool in amk.
almost gt beaten by her,
n she still says she haven play for half a year liao... hahaha
it was fun having a game with her.
and nice talking to ppl u haven met for a long long time.



kinda in to catching up with old buddies n friends.. lolx. shit. but guess have to do this after the examsss... or perhaps when i m bored..
time to do some mental strengthening excercise n straightening in preparations for weeks ahead.
hmm sounds like a hair thinige.. (strengthening and rebonding) wahhaahahahahaha
oh man. crappy mood..


the need to mug is driving me nutty.
song of the week: dark night after( chinese)

weekend

weekend . supposed to be having my precious sleep in my own bed.. ended up letting someone else have the bed and sleeping in the living room..

oh well not a bad weekend. had sushi and movie with ms rin. sushi... still wondering if i really said tat.. wasnt it the other wae round.. the treat/? the movie was funny hahaha been quite a while since i last saw any... think my last movie was.......the dae after tml? hahahaha ages back.

when back home on bus 72.. and at the bus interchange, the gal by the seat opp me was still slping.. been nice i tried to wake her up by calling.. then i went to snapping fingers and was bout to knock on her bagg when she suddenly awoke.. n stare at me with a look of shock..as if i m a pervert. great.. shall nt be nice person an y more.

met up with ck and Mc.. then my 3 juniors. cs ,serene n weijie. always bump into them. wonder why they like to hang ard amk mac so much ......



eexams are coming.. my engines are still quite stalled n nt oiled. haiz. hope to get it runnin next week. had a good sat

my day

had a long day right from the begining.. searching for card players in the early hours. and staying up.. and ended up not sleeping till 7 in the morning.......... so damn tired i was tat i slept till 1230 before i headed for my physio.

i guess i pretty know wad to expect. not much of a great news. kinda worried that my op might failed.. one such example is just living next door besides me.. haiz!

did the orth test today, sharon said.. it seems much much louser than before.. just great.. hahahah sharon my physiotherapist is such a horror.. and she did the most horrid thing to me when i was in the electric chair. hahahah. oh well

the void within

it sbeen a long time since i actually did any thing that has got to do with school work on a saturday when i aint got any quizes .hahah.. kinda happy that i m out studying with my secondary pal ee. hahaha. but unfortunately.. though i spend half a day after my sat quiz trying to catch up with my lectures. i also spend half a dayaft 9 playing pool and having coffee. hahah worst thing.. to think i ll pick up such a horrid stuff. something is wrong with me.. wonder where my 2year plus of determination to stay away from such things have gone too.. these daes , i just seem to cant care much with control..

anw wae it was nice having ee out. hahah helps in enabling me to talk cock..
bump into serene and weijie at s11 ard midnight. hahah so many years never see my junior yet i bump into dem twice in two weeks. hahaha

lotsa re[ports to be submitted next week. kinda expect next week to be jialat. Stress.. haiz.. hope i dun sucumb to it again... : (